Is there still any hope?

Ever since that day you said we should remain friends. It killed me, I was never the same again. And now I have been reminded of reality again, I'm so weak at heart. Now I'm on my knees again. Why oh why? Is my fate so twisted and cruel.. Or is it me? Who should take the chance when I had it. It just kinda wasted away.. I still love you very much.. I'll do anything just to win you over.. But is that possible? Is it still possible? Should I take the risk? I'm afraid of rejection.. The fear of rejection.. It's been there.. I've faced it countless times.. I don't want to face it again.. I'm not the same anymore.. One more time and I'll go crazy. Maybe run to the highway... Hope the speeding car would make me a human bump. And it'll be all over. I just can't take it anymore. Life is harsh.. I'm not like other people.. I'm not standout at all.. What should I do? ._. I just want all of this to stop.. I want my life to be meaningful again. But all has gone the other way round.. What should I do? I can't do anything. There is nothing I could do anymore.. I've lost it all..