Hmmm

Going out yesterday with my good friend and the person whom i adore. it was an awesome night, even though we couldn't do much. i blame the crappy line -.- i really hope you can go this friday night >.< it would mean allot if you go out with me again. I just hope that it didn't end up like the previous event, which was soo boring i nearly fell asleep. Luckily at the last hour we could go up and dance on the dance floor. Maybe this time we could dance longer. Soso~ And I will prolly reactivate my fb account after this saturdays exams. I can't afford to screw up again. Hmm I do wonder if i should reactivate it~

Why? Why WHY?!

Why can't you just change your ways? Now we're pushed into a very tight situation. And yet you're not trying hard enough to change the situation. You're just useless. I can't help it..

You can always stand under my umbrella

You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you'll still be my star

Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

When the sun shines, we?ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella

(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh, eh eh eh)

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/rihanna-lyrics/umbrella-lyrics.html -]
You can stand under my umbrella

(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh, eh eh eh)

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come here to me
There's no distance in between our love

So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

When the sun shines, we?ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella

(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella, eh eh eh, eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come here to me
Come here to me

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
You can always come here to me
Come here to me

It's pouring rain
It's pouring rain
Come here to me
Come here to me

Don't worry :)

Jojo Sim and Adeline Liew don't worry about if you wondered why I deactivated my facebook account. Its just temporary, I need a bit of time for myself ._. there is so much a person can take. Thanks for caring for me though. Really appreciate it. I'll be back. If there's anything just message me through the phone

I'm sorry dad.

I know I treated you very badly for these few months. I feel very guilty about it, yet somehow I can't make it up and forgive you. When I want to forgive you, somehow you just made me mad and I'll lose my conscience and start saying things that I shouldn't. Maybe my terrible times right now is the karma which I deserved for ill treating you. After all, you're my dad :) who am I do this to you? But I really hope you'll change your ways. We all do. Please dad? Make me proud once again..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgyNUEXNPLM
Tell me why I'm here dad
Whisper in my ear that I'm growing up to be a better man, dad
Everything is fine dad
Proud that you are mine dad
Cause I know I'm growing up to be a better man

Father I will always be
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you

What's a dad for dad?
Taught me how to stand, dad
Took me by the hand and you showed me how to be a bigger man, dad
Listen when you talk, dad
Follow where you walk, dad
And you know that I will always do the best I can
I can

Father I will always be (always be)
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me (over me)
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you
The same as you

Father I will always be
That same boy that stood by the sea
And watched you tower over me
Now I'm older I wanna be the same as you

When I am a dad, dad x2
I'm gonna be a good dad x2
Do the best you could, dad x2
Always understood, dad x2
Tell me I was right, dad x2
Opened up my eyes, dad x2
Glad to call you my, dad x2
Thank you for my dad x2

我累了

有时候，我花我所有的时间在你身上。可是呢，有时候你嫌我烦。只是问一个问题，你却把它当作是废！But that's ok. I always forgive you no matter what. My sista said I'm a softie when it comes to you. Yes, it is true. Even if you robbed me I'll still forgive you. I wonder what really happened. I wasn't as weak as this. I used to be a very stubborn one. I never really cared for people in the past. But as time goes by allot of stuff has happened. And maybe those things shaped me up to be what I am today. Come on larh, I won't remain the same forever. I used to be talkative, but now I barely wanna open my mouth. I just lost my interest somehow. These few days, I'm saving money to buy you that jacket you always wanted so much. It wasn't easy though, I'm still saving for it. And it ain't cheap either. I hope you'll be suprised and like it :3 I don't really care if you ignore me or whatsoever. I'm through with it. If things don't work out I'll just leave. After all, who ever cared about me? Those whom I used to be so close with, they don't have the time to keep in touch with me anymore. Life's life, you can't change your own fate. But at least you should try to work it out, maybe there will be some progress. As for me? Well... I don't know. Maybe I'll go off somewhere far away one day. Hoping to forget all the memories. Yes life is harsh for others as well and people might think that I'm overreacting. It's really up to them anyway. I mean they don't know what it's like to have a dad who gets constantly blamed just because his job doesn't provide steady income, and a mom who secretly finds a guy thinking that we don't know. It's just so embarasing to tell it out. I rather write it out. I won't cry infront of anybody. I'll just fake a smile and pretend everything's ok. I'm not thinking too much. I can't avoid it anyways. I'll have to face it head on.

Oh my goodness

I've just realized, I don't really like to talk to people nowadays. What's wrong with me? What just happened? I've shut myself in like a clam. I wasn't like this in the past. I love to talk to people. But now, it's just a whole different story. Talking has lost it's place in me. There's just no more interest.

Have I lost it?

I think I have lost almost all the thing I have build up for. I feel so alone. Why didn't I just give up back then? Why did I try so hard but I never dared to say it? I feel so lost.. I felt like everything is gone.. Why am I so afraid to let go? Is it because I'm afraid to lose you? Why did I choose to continue? Why? Dear God please tell me why.. Why am I just being so foolish all along? Why..

Haih ._.

Same old day same old story. When will this end? I hope it all pass soon enough. I don't wish to continue hearing this, yes I appreciate you telling the truth. But constantly repeating is just like rubbing salt to the wounds. You said not to think too much about it but yet you repeat it most of the time. How am I suppose to forget that thought? And the other thing is why sometimes you will treat me so rude all of a sudden? I dislike that very much. It bothers me ._. not that I want to complain but I'm sensitive you know. It's not like you'll ever notice it. Sigh, why did I choose to come this far? No one can anwser that. Only I know the anwser, or maybe I'm just too afraid to let go..

Wtf?

I want to live a normal life! Fuck you assholes who keep trying to wear me down! What the fuck is wrong with you people? Want to push me off the edge of a cliff? 你们不要太过分！

Tomorrowland!

My friend showed me a video. At first I have no idea what is it. People jumping up and down. But after a while then I start to realize what's going on. They're dancing to the music! Only held once a year in Europe. 250 artists from around the world come to this festival. For 3 days and 3 nights the audience doesn't sleep. What a way to enjoy life! Take a break! Must go to tomorrowland in the future!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7CdTAiaLes

-_-

When will you ever learn? Sometimes I pity you very much. It's not that I don't want to talk to you. It's the way you talk that chases everybody away. I won't talk to you again until you have settled yourself down and figure out what the hell went wrong -_- If you don't, it's your loss. Not mine

你给我滚蛋！！！！！

我`受够了！！！！我是人！！！不是一只动物！！就算是动物它们也有感情！！你们这些没良心的东西已后不要来找我！我不稀罕你的友情！你从一开始就不是我的朋友！所以，给我滚远远！曾我还没发疯之前！

什么倒霉日子？

真是的！找人来谈天却没人想理我。像人打个招呼也不想理我！还是算了，反真说那么多又怎么样？谁会采你？我可觉得我好像是一个大白痴，整天被人利用罢了！

Haih

好人难做，有时候真是会被人吃掉。看了就累，我要怎么样才好？对你好，你有时候都对我像一个陌生人！我再想，还是不要想了。。

穷人的开心

有时候，我们都有梦想。可是并不是每个梦想一定会成真.... 我的梦想并不大，可是怎么样求，怎么样逼。暂时不会实现，有时候看到自已的梦想车再前面。真是会伤心又生气，伤心的是可能买不到。生气的时那个死老头子有一副又笨又老土的脑！说跑车是笨蛋架的，死都不会买给我。你等我一定买给你看！到时候你修想动我的车！你连坐都没机会！你这个人只是车大炮！说了不做！我都不会相性你了！我暂时只能玩游戏来当是梦想。我死都不会再相性你的骗话了！凸

T_T

I don't really wanna say much around here. You're just treating me like an enemy these few days. Or is it just me? I tried talking to you but somehow my words seem so alien to you. Maybe I was being the fool all along. Day by day these thoughts are killing me. Day by day the memories keep haunting me. I might say allot of stuff but sometimes they're just cover ups. I don't really want people to worry about me.  Second thing besides that, a certain person added me. A person whom I wish not to see and hope you totally disappear from my life entirely. I don't know what you're thinking but I don't care either. Just stay outta my way. You'll just as pathetic as ever, I don't like your attitude. You don't change won't ever change at all!

Haih

不是我要对你死，是你自已死性不改！

Internet line

Dear gawd, why is the stupid internet line so damn slow -_- I'm getting furious as most of the time I'm doing something and it suddenly shut down. Stupid government should just go to hell

Missing you

I woke up early in the morning. And feeling a deep longing for you, I missed you so much. But you might never know and prolly won't even be bothered about it. But that's ok, as I would just wait here for you... 

Stooopid children -_-

Immature children should be banned from the internet! They're going around talking in a very childish manner and stirring up arguments without any reasons -_- I despise these sort of people as they are just a bunch of keyboard warriors.

Bliblablabla~

New updates. Actually the day just passed so fast, it's already afternoon. And I didn't feel it at all. Very soon it'll be night again O_O

The effect

让我等，白白浪费时间。已经不是第一次了。可是生气又怎样？当然没人管，所以呢。不要生气，省省一点力气~可是我还是在生气！Yeah yeah yeah I'm a nobody to you ._. Why do I even bother anyways -_-

Hit right in the face ._.

Ok so much for patience ._. Waited for quite a while and the person just dissappeared without a trace. What a gloomy Sunday, I don't feel like talking to anybody even. Sooooooooo reluctant to even type to other people

Yawns..

Woke up in the morning going to church, it's been awhile since I went there. Then opening my facebook and actually see some nonsense being directed forward to me. Blah, I'ma just ignore that. Thing is when I wake up I always have to see a loser's face -_-  Not that I want to call you a loser. But you just don't wanna change your fate. You deny being a jobless bum and actually felt proud about it. We tried to correct you but you're just getting worst day by day. I grew tired of seeing you even, I totally lost my trust and faith towards you. You're not the person whom I once know anymore. Working smart but not working hard? What sort of bloody joke is that? That term only goes with " Working hard and working smart " , separate these two things and they'll just crumble like a house divided into two. With no actual support at all. You're all talk and no work, how does that make any progress? Whatever the case is I've given up on you. You're the perfect example of what I shouldn't be at all. I'm going to go work overseas if I have the chance. I don't wanna stick around to see you feeling proud while others feel sorry for your ass.

45 things girls want. Boys better take note >:l

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

Vocals

Today went to learn vocals. Tiring at first, but I'll get the hang of it soon. I'm gonna go learn drums and some other instruments too. Wohooo :P I hope I don't screw this up

Difference of love and like

D I F F E R E N C E S   B E T W E E N   L O V E   A N D   L I K E

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster
But in front of the person you like , you get happy.

In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring
But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you like, you smile.

In front of the person you love, you can' t say everything on your mind
But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy
But in front of the person you like, you can show your ownself.

Then person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes.
You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you love
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them
But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

The feeling of love starts from the eye
And the feeling of like starts from the ear.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like
All you need to do is cover your ears,
But if you try to close your eyes
Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after.
Author Unknown

Kaninabu!

Some people, specially in facebook. Asked me to like their photos. Fine, I give you support and clicked on your photos. I did it earnestly. And when I ask you to help me by doing the same, you practically ignored my request and pretend to not know it at all. You know what? KANINABU CIB** BASTARD! I WON'T F***ING HELP YOU PEOPLE AGAIN! F**K OFF! YOU CAN KISS MY ASS FOR ALL I CARE! LIM LAO BEH! LIM LAO HIAH! LIM LAO BU!

Halfway breakdown?

想开始新的生活有点难.. Why is that so? Maybe I'm just being too sensitive. But I sure don't like people asking about me and her ._. or what happened and why? It would just kill me. I wanna put everything in the past. Can't people just understand that? Sigh.. Not everybody is successful alright? Or maybe I'm taking things a little too serious. But that's just me.. 

A new day has start

I'll make it short and simple, a new day has begun. Which also means a new life has started as well.

All's well end's well

At least now can still play game happily with her. That's all that is important to me now. This morning I couldn't even do my exam's properly cause of the stupid bad mood

Nice song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0GeDI2sllVM&feature=related
Im standing here alone
as always all alone
waiting for you to come
but i know that wouldnt happen

Passengers walking by
floating clouds in the sky
I'd better laugh it off
all the things I've done for you

[bridge]
Is it an easy thing to do?
or is it difficult to do?
accept the fact that you have gone without me
then take another step

I cant believe if this is true
Don't wanna hear the words from you:
"How can you not find out,
what you've been meant to me,
it's just a stupid little clown."

[chorus]
ahh I can't see, I can't hear, I can't be away from you.
ahh I can't breathe, I can't breathe, so hard to breathe.
Yes look at it, this is it, the fate between you and me.
There'll never be a chance for me to get to you.


[verse 2]
Even you put me down,
the world still spins around.
Spining round and round,
as if I am nothing at all.

With just a blink of an eye,
you took my breath away.
It must be what they called
L.O.V.E at first sight.

[bridge]
Is it by chance to be us two?
or is it meant to be us two?
It might be better for me to leave behind
the answer you have said

I cant resist the warmth from you
No matter what I've tried to do
the smile on your face
the happiness you bring
every single little thing just makes me drown..

[instrumental break]

ahh I can't see, I can't hear, I can't be away from you.
ahh I can't see, I can't hear, I can't be away from you.
ahh I can't breathe, I can't breathe, I cant't breathe, so hard to breathe.
ahh I can't breathe, I can't breathe, I can't breathe, how can i breathe?

[chorus]
ahh everything everything everything wont be the same
ahh everywhere everywhere i go is you
No I cant stand no more, lying down right here waiting
for you to pick up every single piece of me.

ahh all I see, all I hear, all I feel is fading out
ahh all I breathe, all I breathe, it's you I breathe
Yes I'm the one that you always call "pierrot-san"
will always stay the same cuz I know you -
will never set me free...

When will it all end?

From the day you rejected me. That could be the last time you'll ever go out with me. You never know how I would actually feel. 你说你看到我的fb post 你觉得很 pek chek. What have I done wrong? I've only post something to express myself. You said we should just be friends. But now all I see is that you're just avoiding me like a plague. But that's alright, I wait.. I waited day after day.. It's only day four since you killed my emotions towards everything. Night after night I kept having nightmares.. I woke up in the middle of the night.. Having the worst fears that you might be taken from me. But that's already happened. That's just the first stage. If it continues to stage 2 I might as well end my miserable life. Why are you doing this to me?? That's alright. I never blamed you from the start. You were not to blame at all. Everything was my fault. I wish I could just laugh off all the things that I've done for you. After the day you threw everything back at me, you started feeling guilty. Why should you? I'm sorry if I've ever gave you any problems. If anyone were to ever read this. Don't blame her at all. It's just my own foolish and stubbornness. Day after day, the problems pile up. I tried finding people to talk to. But somehow they just got tired of me. That's ok, I won't go trouble you guys anymore. You all don't know what it's like to have a loser dad who doesn't even have a proper job and still feels proud about it. Or parent's that would understand you at all. It's hard you know, I wish I could just get hit by a truck or the sky would fall down and crush me... 我真的受不了....

New to this

So yeah. I've create a blog so that people can't actually see what I'm expressing.