Friday 15 June 2012
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU! AND ALL YOUR PETTY LITTLE LIES! YOU MAKE ME SICK TO THE GUT! YOUR THE MOST SELFISH TWAT I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE! YOU CARE NOT FOR ANYBODY BUT YOURSELF! YOU THINK WE MADE YOU DEPRESSED? YOU ARE BRINGING YOUR OWN TROUBLES AND SORROW! STOP BEING SUCH A FOOL AND BE A MAN ALREADY! WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO MAKE YOU SHIP SHAPE INTO A REAL MAN? INSTEAD OF LISTENING TO THOSE ASSHOLES WHO DON'T EVEN MAKE MUCH OF A LIVING! THEY'RE MAKING A FOOL OUT OF YOU! DON'T YOU KNOW THAT? NOW THAT YOU LOST ALMOST EVERYTHING INCLUDING THE TRUST OF YOUR OWN FAMILY! WHO CAN YOU BLAME? AND YOU STILL DON'T WANT TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT! THATS RIGHT! YOU'RE FOOLISH! FOOLISH TO THE CORE THAT I DO NOT EVER WANT TO MENTION ANYTHING SOMETIMES TO YOU! JUST... JUST.... Just... Please... Get out of our sight.. We don't want you anymore... You're dragging us down... You're dragging me down... You're making me a victim of a war which you started... You never ever cared how I feel... You just let yourself run wild like some kind of animal trying to get people to listen to you and follow you cause you gawdamn think everything you do is right. I'm sick of that, you don't deserve respect! You don't deserve my trust! Hell no human being alive in this world can earn my full trust! I trust nobody and why should I even worry about that? Psh, I'm losing friends cause of scum like you dragging me down. Just get the hell out of my sight already... I'm tired of seeing your sorry ass... I'm tired of feeling sorry for you... I'm tired of giving you my sympathy but you're not making it any better out of yourself...
SHUT UP!
I HATE YOU ALL! GAWDAMNIT WHY DO YOU PEOPLE JUST LOVE TO MAKE EMPTY PROMISES? COMPLAIN? START SPITING SPIKES BEHIND PEOPLES BACKS! HELL IT AIN'T MY PROBLEM AND WHY MUST I SUFFER FOR IT? WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE AND WHY DO I HAVE TO PAY THE PRICE FOR YOUR STUPID FUCKING ACTIONS WHICH I WASN'T EVEN INVOLVED IN AND THE STUPID WAR YOU ARE ALL HAVING NOW? DONT YOU ALL KNOW THAT I'M THE REAL VICTIM HERE?
AND YOU! I'VE PAID SO MUCH BLOODY ATTENTION TO YOU AND ALL YOU DID WAS JUST IGNORE THE HELL OUT OF ME! I SPENT ALL MY TIME WAITING AND WAITING AND WAITING AND FUCK YOU NEVER EVER! EVER!!!!! TOOK ME INTO CONSIDERATION! GAWDAMNIT I JUST WISH YOU GET OUT OF MY SIGHT! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE RIGHT NOW IM JUST SO GAWDAMN PISSED THAT I WANT TO CHOP OFF MY ARM AND WATCH MYSELF BLEED TO DEATH!
IS IT A SIN TO BECOME POOR? WHY DO YOU PEOPLE AVOID US LIKE A PLAGUE? WHAT DID WE DO WRONG? IS MONEY THAT IMPORTANT TO YOU PEOPLE? IS IT?! IS IT FUCKING IMPORTANT THAT BLOOD TIES MEAN NOTHING COMPARED TO MONEY? ARE YOU PEOPLE FUCKING OUT OF YOUR MIND? I'M SO BLOODY SICK OF YOU I JUST WANT TO LIVE LIKE A HERMIT LIKE THE REST OF MY LIFE! YOU ALL BEST STAY OUT OF MY WAY NOW OR FEEL THE WRATH OF MY RAGE WHICH I HAVE NEVER EVER RELEASED AT ALL!
AND YOU! I'VE PAID SO MUCH BLOODY ATTENTION TO YOU AND ALL YOU DID WAS JUST IGNORE THE HELL OUT OF ME! I SPENT ALL MY TIME WAITING AND WAITING AND WAITING AND FUCK YOU NEVER EVER! EVER!!!!! TOOK ME INTO CONSIDERATION! GAWDAMNIT I JUST WISH YOU GET OUT OF MY SIGHT! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE RIGHT NOW IM JUST SO GAWDAMN PISSED THAT I WANT TO CHOP OFF MY ARM AND WATCH MYSELF BLEED TO DEATH!
IS IT A SIN TO BECOME POOR? WHY DO YOU PEOPLE AVOID US LIKE A PLAGUE? WHAT DID WE DO WRONG? IS MONEY THAT IMPORTANT TO YOU PEOPLE? IS IT?! IS IT FUCKING IMPORTANT THAT BLOOD TIES MEAN NOTHING COMPARED TO MONEY? ARE YOU PEOPLE FUCKING OUT OF YOUR MIND? I'M SO BLOODY SICK OF YOU I JUST WANT TO LIVE LIKE A HERMIT LIKE THE REST OF MY LIFE! YOU ALL BEST STAY OUT OF MY WAY NOW OR FEEL THE WRATH OF MY RAGE WHICH I HAVE NEVER EVER RELEASED AT ALL!
Monday 11 June 2012
Nothing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIa4xKHQB_k
Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet
They say a few drinks will help you to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I'm face to face that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting
She'll take me back for sure
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting
Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing
I've gained nothing but I've lost a lot of things </3
Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet
They say a few drinks will help you to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if i go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I'm face to face that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting
She'll take me back for sure
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting
Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
Dialed her number and confess to her
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing
She said nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing
I've gained nothing but I've lost a lot of things </3
Everything that happened I take it too personal.
Sometimes I can pretend nothing has happened at all. I could go on living my life and turning a blind eye to all that is happening around me. But sometimes there's always someone or something that reminds me that no matter how hard I try to blind out the fact it will always come back no matter what.
What am I suppose to do?
Cry? My eyes are dry already.
Talk to someone? I've just got into a silly little misunderstanding because of my little foolishness. Talking to the same person over and over seemed like complaining. And they can't comfort much.
Oh well, maybe I should start getting used to this feel. After all this isn't the first time. Isn't the first time I've been in a foul mood and somebody has thrown me further off course.
I'm sorry but that's just the way I am.
I've been trying not to think.
The fact some people just ignored me makes me want to kill myself.
We used to talk for like hours and everyday in the past. But what happened in the past will forever be in the past.
Its hard being poor. Being poor in wealth, moral values, personality, looks. In the 21st century nobody will pay much attention to you.
Why? Cause money was the main attention of everybody. That piece of damn paper has struck into our very soul.
Money has drive me nuts from time to time. Because of a want for things which are a bit too hard to acquire. And the temper seems to grow as I keep feeding it. It will not stop and I have no idea how to stop this temper from overtaking me before its too late...
Dear God please help me..
I'm so tired of being so pathetic when I'm trying to be the good person but with a bad mouth that gives away everything.
What am I suppose to do?
Cry? My eyes are dry already.
Talk to someone? I've just got into a silly little misunderstanding because of my little foolishness. Talking to the same person over and over seemed like complaining. And they can't comfort much.
Oh well, maybe I should start getting used to this feel. After all this isn't the first time. Isn't the first time I've been in a foul mood and somebody has thrown me further off course.
I'm sorry but that's just the way I am.
I've been trying not to think.
The fact some people just ignored me makes me want to kill myself.
We used to talk for like hours and everyday in the past. But what happened in the past will forever be in the past.
Its hard being poor. Being poor in wealth, moral values, personality, looks. In the 21st century nobody will pay much attention to you.
Why? Cause money was the main attention of everybody. That piece of damn paper has struck into our very soul.
Money has drive me nuts from time to time. Because of a want for things which are a bit too hard to acquire. And the temper seems to grow as I keep feeding it. It will not stop and I have no idea how to stop this temper from overtaking me before its too late...
Dear God please help me..
I'm so tired of being so pathetic when I'm trying to be the good person but with a bad mouth that gives away everything.
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