我累了

有时候，我花我所有的时间在你身上。可是呢，有时候你嫌我烦。只是问一个问题，你却把它当作是废！But that's ok. I always forgive you no matter what. My sista said I'm a softie when it comes to you. Yes, it is true. Even if you robbed me I'll still forgive you. I wonder what really happened. I wasn't as weak as this. I used to be a very stubborn one. I never really cared for people in the past. But as time goes by allot of stuff has happened. And maybe those things shaped me up to be what I am today. Come on larh, I won't remain the same forever. I used to be talkative, but now I barely wanna open my mouth. I just lost my interest somehow. These few days, I'm saving money to buy you that jacket you always wanted so much. It wasn't easy though, I'm still saving for it. And it ain't cheap either. I hope you'll be suprised and like it :3 I don't really care if you ignore me or whatsoever. I'm through with it. If things don't work out I'll just leave. After all, who ever cared about me? Those whom I used to be so close with, they don't have the time to keep in touch with me anymore. Life's life, you can't change your own fate. But at least you should try to work it out, maybe there will be some progress. As for me? Well... I don't know. Maybe I'll go off somewhere far away one day. Hoping to forget all the memories. Yes life is harsh for others as well and people might think that I'm overreacting. It's really up to them anyway. I mean they don't know what it's like to have a dad who gets constantly blamed just because his job doesn't provide steady income, and a mom who secretly finds a guy thinking that we don't know. It's just so embarasing to tell it out. I rather write it out. I won't cry infront of anybody. I'll just fake a smile and pretend everything's ok. I'm not thinking too much. I can't avoid it anyways. I'll have to face it head on.