Vow

I've taken a vow to study hard and get out of here. That is my only chance out of this miserable household. Bloody shiat like nobody ever cared about how I actually felt and all of you people just know how to bitch!

I trust no one

Because of all your bloody pathetic false hopes that you all gave me. I've made up my mind and decided not to ever listen or trust any of you ever again. This world really could be cruel and no matter how cruel it treats you everything still goes on. Nothing stop for you and there's not much that would stand with you let alone understand how much of the pain you feel inside your heart. I've made up my mind of not listening and not putting any of you into my consideration again. I'm on my own and studying in that university is the only ticket out of here. I hope time flies past and I'll be able to succeed so that I won't have to suffer like any of you. No I'm grateful for what you did but since you made me lose all hope in you that's your own fault and your own loss. Let me put it in one way that I'll just say that you're all hopeless. Enough said

False hopes

In the past few months. I've been given hopes of actually getting what I really needed and a guaranteed possibility to go overseas to pursue my education. But what comes out of it in a few months? What was it actually? My aunt got scammed in the process. And to make matters worst my dreams somehow got crushed and what I really needed just have to keep staying on the need list. I'm just so bloody tired you know? First is the stupid old man who actually lied and never even tell me he couldn't afford a car for me. Instead just brought me false hopes of actually owning one. YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT LOOK WHAT YOU JUST DID! YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU F*CKING KNOW WHAT? I DON'T CARE ABOUT ALL OF YOU ANYMORE! I'M ON MY OWN! I'LL JUST HAVE TO FOCUS ONLY ON ONE GOAL! ONE GOAL THAT IS TO STUDY HARD AND LEAVE THIS PLACE ONCE AND FOR ALL! TO START A NEW LIFE BY MYSELF AND LEAVE ALL OF YOU PEOPLE AND YOUR BLOODY FAKE LIES BEHIND! CAUSE I'M SERIOUSLY FED UP OF PEOPLE COMPLAINING EVERYDAY SAYING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER! ITS NOT LIKE I DON'T KNOW SHIT OR HOW THE SITUATION WENT! I'M ALMOST GOING CRAZY HERE AND YOU STILL DON'T GIVE A SHIT! YOU NEVER GAVE A SHIT AND I WON'T EITHER! YEAH SURE BLAME ME FOR BEING USELESS AND SHIT BUT YOU'VE NEVER LOOKED AT THE SOURCE OF WHERE ALL THESE STUFF CAME FROM! Gawd I'm just so tired with you people!!!!! So freaking tired!!! You people make me so fed up that I don't even really want to stay at home! You know that?! If I hear anyone complaining to me I'll be frank and shoot you straight away! That's how bloody tired I am of listening to people whining up and down about your stupid constant misfortunes. As if I don't have any misfortunes at all!